My last post was a mistake. I'm sure you realize that now that you're reading it. Well, I have no explanation for those actions other than that that was not me mentally that wrote that last post. I mean, it was me, but I was not in the right state of mind in that moment. I wrote some things that were very harsh and untrue on there and now I feel so much guilt. So now, I am going to fix things.
Love, I didn't mean that I was tired of your shit. I don't know why I said that, maybe because I felt like you were avoiding telling me stuff or maybe it was because you had lied to me about something unimportant. Either way, it was stupid of me to act so wrongly towards you. I love you. That will never change, and you know that. I am not going to delete my last post because I want you to be able to use it against me if you decide to punish me for my wrong decision. I won't hide, I know I wronged you, so I should be punished if the judge chooses. Whether or not you punish me, nevertheless, I will love you. You are my Ruby <3
OKAY. I apologize for the sappiness of that last paragraph. Honestly this sappiness would make me through up if it wasn't from or involving me. But hey; we all have our moments:)
Oh, another problem, my best friends(ALL FOUR OF THEM) have a crush on me now. I don't know why; I mean, who wants a girl who's internally a boy, but refuses to change her appearance based off of her masculinity?! Well, it's insane, because the two girls both shower me with gifts while one of the two boys showers me with support and "brotherly love". The last one is my boyfriend. He treats me like a...ruler. See why I'm sorry??? It's because I CARE I ABOUT SOMEONE GUYS!!!! Omg that is new. Alright, I will post later. Sorry for boring you once again.
~Chan Black
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